Shutdown sequence in progress

"There comes a time in every man's life and I had quite a few of those," someone smarter and funnier then me once said.
It is that time, that particular moment when you realize you have to cut your losses. When you realize that, hell, someone has to take out the trash.
I have allowed quite some amount of junk to enter my life in the past year. It is that failure prone feeling that you get sometimes, when you think that people want to change for better. This proves to be a very arrogant and naive assumption. Most people do not want to change. Most people are so afraid of change, that evolution itself stops. Poor Darwin, all that work for nothing...

This might be the exact reason why most people do not deserve to be helped. As nothing is more frustrating then saving some's ass without ever getting a thank you.

It hit me a short time ago when someone told me: "I can't do this, I get a bad vibe about it." I would have been OK with it if I would have actually believed it was about a bad vibe.
But this was about fear. Fear of change. Fear of getting hurt. Fear of feeling anything else than "I've got God so I am ... happy?".
This notion of God has been so abused lately it is sickening. I was reading someone's profile a while ago. In the passions/interests section, the person added God as the first entry. God as an interest. Hobby. Passion. How does that work in one's mind?
- "What do you like to do in your free time dear?"
- "Hmmm, ummm, well, I like to think about God and stuff. I think of it for a while, and then I am like "Ohh My God" you know, "he is sooo cute" and then there is no thinking no more, which you know, it is God's way of telling me that I am doing good, as there is no pain in the not thinking process, you know".

This phenomenon, that I like to call "God stalking" freaks me out. Way too many times people are using God and religion as an excuse for whatever. Too many times you see people self content with their soul selfmutilation just because they go to church on Sundays.

There is a new wave of pseudo-morality and fucked up ethics that starts with:
"I am so gonna lie to myself up to heaven".

I don't understand this ubiquos fear of getting hurt. People are willing to give up everything that is beautiful in this life only to avoid pain and heartache.
With regret I have to say, I do not intend to be on this journey. Yes, no one likes to get hurt but, getting hurt is a NATURAL way of growing as a human. It builds you up. It teaches you what real happiness is.

I choose to take the red pill. It may be that ignorance is bliss, but that is not the blessing I am seeking.

As ( Cartman ) says:

"Screw you guys, I am going home."

Red Pill:
"The red pill is an unknown quantity. We are told that it can help us to find the truth. We don't know what that truth is, or even that the pill will help us to find it. The red pill symbolises risk, doubt and questioning. In order to answer the question, you can gamble your whole life and world on a reality you have never experienced."